hopeless..

i feel so hopeless now.. first my mum, then my dad. following is dropping from 1st to 2nd. (if i tell my parents this what will happen?) if i knew that failing my exam will cause this scenerio, i would have worked hard to my max. why dont they understand that i feel devastated & guilty too? for pinning high hopes yet i fell hard, for trying to please you with my results cause i know thats what you really want, for wasting your money for my tuition yet i failed, for being so careless, for whatever thats  my fault? WHAT THE HELL IS THIS! I DONT WANT THIS TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!