i really really..

I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANNA LEARN PIAAAANNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
but my dad dont allow, only my my mum supports me. & we've no much $$ now. it'll be a burden for my parents if i learn it.. i'm gonna save more moneyyyyyyyyyy! i really want to learn. have been thinking this for years, really wish i could learn..

AND

i really really miss darren. ok, i'll be able to survive.. 5 more days...

Holiday, RELAX --> HOMEWORK

HI! time flies, it's alr nov. Will be very busy during this hol & following year i think. first, i'm having 2 weeks of bridging, & tons of oh-so-boring band pracs, then it'll be genting, edge conf & viva musica. this hol doesnt feel like one because there are piles of work to be done but hopefully i'm gonna enjoy my free time maybe with the girls, milky, qp & darren. ha. ok, i wonder who'll be reading this post cause it seems like no one is coming here alr. nevermind, i love talking to e air. BYE

awww, so sweet! ptm tomorrow, excited for the report book, but not what my teacher is gonna tell me parents...

i'm upset, but upon seeing this, it made me smiled.

hopeless..

i feel so hopeless now.. first my mum, then my dad. following is dropping from 1st to 2nd. (if i tell my parents this what will happen?) if i knew that failing my exam will cause this scenerio, i would have worked hard to my max. why dont they understand that i feel devastated & guilty too? for pinning high hopes yet i fell hard, for trying to please you with my results cause i know thats what you really want, for wasting your money for my tuition yet i failed, for being so careless, for whatever thats  my fault? WHAT THE HELL IS THIS! I DONT WANT THIS TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

UNREASONABLE!

I'm freaking angry now cause of my mum, i might be rude after what she said, but i'm in a pique of anger what do you expect?! & i dont understand why she made me cry & yet she's angry! UNFAIR! I HATE THIS! ok great, now i think she wont wake me up tomorrow morning.

touch 4

I WANT TOUCH 4! anyone willingly to help me buy online? i'll pay you back e money.. pleaseee.

Marking days.

more pix on fb.

HI! never really had a proper post recently due to e exams, so i'm here w/ one now. :D

ok, anw i went to uss on wed (des's 15th) & phoebe's place today. both days were fun, & i enjoyed myself w/ the girls. USS was mad fun! haha, got wet @ the jurassic ride, scared @ e 1st mummy's ride. but most important of all, i got to spend time w/ the girls. After USS, we're all broke & decided to have a no expense 'day'. movie marathon, camwhore, webcam @ phoebe's house, & her poodle was cute but noisy & naughty! keep biting my toes. ha. & 'dead' dog, haha. 

hehe, my little merry is coming tomorrow! heard from mum that when she came on wed, she was looking for me by pointing @ my room & eheheh! haha so adorable, cant wait to see her tomorrow. ok, shall end this post alr. ciao!

Disheartening.

I'm left w/ one more paper & i'm done w/ eoy. urg! my phy & maths papers are all so screwed! esp emaths p2! so disheartening, & gonna do emaths sums later to buck up my paper 1 for tomorrow! I DONT WANNA FAIL MATHS! ok, USS w/ the girls on wed, egggcited!

Hi, havent been updating regularly, i know. i've no time, having a packed schedule. exams are next week & after that i'll be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! yea! ok, bye

22 AUGUST!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!

thanks to everyone that wished me, those who didnt wish me, i dont care about you.

to bandmates & the girls, i love you & you guys are GREAT! not just great but awesome

thanks for wrecking your brains to think of celebrating for me, though it's not successful but i appreciate it.

i love you guys!.

life isnt that smooth sailing

Life isnt that smooth sailing for many. All you have to do is brace up, face it & find an opportunity to tell that person about his/her prob then find a resolution.Yes, it's easier to say than to be done, but if one is brave enough and do it, maybe things might turn better.

back for a moment & vanished in the air

Sup! sorry for the lack of updates, but i'm just too busy & lazy. :D
i'll be having band for 5 days next week. mon,tues,wed morning,thurs,sat! & i bloody have to memorize some chem table within a day cause i'm having tuition on tues, & i just had it today. ok, nevermind, for my own good. i kind of get use to this busy days alr. Life was satisfying & great recently, no issues w/ it i guess? anw,

HAPPY 15TH TO MY BELOVED MILKY!

schoolwork piling up

i've my school work all piling up! i havent done my 3 geog worksheets, when i'm having geog tomorrow. i'm currently struggling w/ my el proposal. i still have my amaths, phy and manymany others! i'm in bloody lot of stress now, my tuition teacher say he's disappointed w/ my phy results. my insomnia is coming back, my massive headache is harrasing me for alr 24hrs! wow.-.- sec three life isnt that enjoyable and easy as i think afterall. ok, SAMANTHA ZHANG! YOU'LL BE ABLE TO PULL THROUGH IT! DETERMINATION! PERSERVER! :(

how great!

OK! from now on, i'm gonna sleep earlier! because i dont wanna fall sick again. I have at least 1 mc every month! my throat is having a sensation now, & i keep sneezing. but i ate biscuits & choc just now! opps, &  i'm not gonna drink my cough syrup! it taste so sucky! haha, i hardly have any voice to speak, when i talk to the doc he cant even hear me, hard time projecting my voice. ok, i'm so tired, i'm gonna sleep again soon. & when i wake up i wanna do geog. ha. :D i skip 3periods of geog today! :D

school tomorrow :(

:( school's gonna reopen tomorrow. i havent enjoyed much yet! come on! gimme more time man!
ok, no point ranting about it cause normally after a long break we'll dread to go to school. -fate of being a student. OK, i've done all my homework except geog, i've telling myself repeatedly EVERYDAY after i finish all my homework to do geog the next day & i still havent do it. WOW! -.- geog just sucks lah!

Fathers' Day?

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Just finish watching gossip girl, & it's alr 0300 in the morning. I'd better hit the bed soon. Anw, HAPPY DADDY's DAY! i think i'll buy something durian for him, but i doubt i'll wake up in time to get there. hmm, maybe that'll be for his bday? haha. OK goodnight or rather goodmorning sleepyheads!

I BOUGHT DURIAN... puff ( can you believe it?! ) i told daddy when he came back home that i bought something for him then he said, " AIYA! waste money! "
"Erm.. it's in the fridge."
" *widen his eyes* You bought durian uh? IMPOSSIBLE LAH! "
"OHHH, i bought durian............................... PUFF! "
*laughs
"THANK YOU!"

HA! anw, went to have dinner, ate sambal fish, chilli crab, cereal prawn, veg, duck & hometown tofu. & i feel like imma fat pig now! i think i really gained some weight during this hol! OMG! gonna work out soon! haha! anw, i feel like i'm burning inside, cause of all the spicy food. how am i going to sleep?!!

Be ignorant

i'll just be ignorant, & live on w/ the presence of people around me

HI! i'm so bored. i've my eyes glued to the tv for one whole day & doing nothing else. ( except eating & drinking.) OH! lucky me to have someone to deliver lunch for me to my doorstep today! HAHA! thanks anw., appreciate it much. will repay you someday. on a second thought, maybe not. :D will be having band tomorrow & i hope mr poh will not turn up! It's not that i dont know how to tougue, is that the note is very low & very difficult to blow! & we've been blowing for 7 freaking hours, our lips are damn pain YOU KNOW! my inner lip is a little swollen cause of you!

Can hardly open my eyes

ok, i'm having flu again & mummy & daddy is overseas again. i've no one to attend to me :(

A great day spent.

 xoxo, gossip girl.

Time check: 0225 'WHY ARENT I SLEEPING?!'

I'm suppose to be asleep by now, but i just cant seem to do so. Apparently, i'm suffering from insomnia for days & days! when i wake up in the day, i felt like i've drunk for a night & was having a hangover (btw, i dont drink). urg, whatever. hopefully, my insomnia will get better before the school reopens.

Alright, i went out to town w/ mummy today & i ALMOST lost my dear phone cause i left it in the toilet. Luckily, the cleaner was kind enough to keep it for me. it was sucha close shave but thank god i'm able to get it back if not i'll be in deepdeep trouble. anw, we went from somerset to orchard & mummy have to rest constantly cause she have a knee problem. it was a fruitful trip for both of us cause we both bought the things we wanted though i didnt get my bags & shoes. after walking for approx. 8hours(mummy rest i shop), i feel like my legs are stiff & it's freaking pain! the price of shopping for long hours. hahaaha!

My anticipation is worth it.

I've been neglecting this blog cause i'm extremely lazy to post. ok anw, here's my boring week.

-i had band on mon & thurs, & they were BORING! choy asked me to play alto 2 cause we need it but little did i expect that it's more difficult than alto 1 cause i'm used to higher notes; no choice :/

-I got back my report book on thurs & yes! thank god my hard work is all worth it. mummy & daddy is satisfied w/ it, & i'm quite satisfied too but i know i can do better. & i'm sure everyone can.

-i had my saturday well spent w/ the girls @ marina barrage. we fly kite, played scrabble & tried to camwhore till phoebe cam's batt go flat before sharmaine & dionna arrive.(failed of course) overall, it's nice spending time w/ the girls out. & i dont know why i got a little sun burn & it's itching my shoulders!

well,that's about it. the long holiday i've been anticipating for is here! but i'll be busy w/ band, tuition, homework! of course, i will go out too. hopefully, i'll have time to shop w/ MUMMY! stupid band prac interrupted my shopping date w/ mummy. :(

Stuck @ home.

Sup people! i'm back again.!

Yesterday i was alone in class cause the girls didnt turn up. so unexpected, but well, nevermind. lessons as usual & had band after school. My adorable junior didnt turn up, so i was damn bored during band. Home after band & wait for mum & dad to come home. MERRY came back w/ them! awww, merry is getting more & more adorable & naughty each day! when i put my face closer to her, i thought she wanted to grab my hair but instead she punched my eyes! VIOLENT baby! it was so painful! haha!

Vistarian road run today, & am proud of my results in the race. special thanks to Bernice for waiting for me when i stopped. rot @ home after road run cause picnic plan w/ girls was cancelled. hopefully, i wont be rotting tomorrow? or maybe i should read my book? HAHA!

EXAMS OVER!

hello! i'm back! it's been sucha busy month for me, & finally i got a break. but i just feel amiss w/o homeworks. anw, have been hanging out w/ the girls for the past two days & it was really fun, they've always make my day! HAHA!

ohcrap! i've got CIP tomorrow, after school & i'm gonna miss band. dont feel like going CIP because it's lame! we're gonna go to the beach to pick litter. wow! how fascinating is that?! & what's more, i'm sick AGAIN. great! i might not be able to go school tomorrow! MUAHAHAHA! ok, i think i better go do my stuff. will edit my blog & post more whenever i'm free. bye!

On hiatus

awww, merry is so adorable!
went out today, & the movie plan was cancelled, ended up window shopping, cause i'm officially broke. :(
so, i'm going on a hiatus till the end of my exam; which is 13th may. Apr will be a busy month, I've got band, speech day rehearsals, tuition & revision to do. i'll stand down from band on 23 apr. & what matters most is... MYE is 4 days after! idiot! can't they give us more time to study? alright! enough of complaining, BYEBYE!

resting in progress.

I've got a weak immune system. Mummy says cause i've been sleep very late. But the best part of being sick is that you dont need to attend the boring lessons in school! :D worse part is... the medication! hate it! (pros & cons)  ANW, went to the doc myself yesterday, wait for dont know how long, so i went to buy a mag & came across this interesting article about friendship.

1. A good friend NEVER leaves you behind. Whether it's heading down for recess, or walking to school together, friends always wait for each other.
2. A good friend ALWAYS tells the truth. If you know something is amiss, you need to let them know what you think even if it means hurting them. Try to be more sensitive and let them down slowly.
3. A good friend NEVER judges. When your friend does something to hurt you, hear them out before you make any judgements. they might have a good reason for doing what they did.
4. A good friend NEVER makes excuses. If your friends come to you for help, dont make excuses and turn them away.
5. A good friend ALWAYS listens. If your friend is in need of a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on, always make sure you're there with tissues.
6. A good friend ALWAYS protects. Always stand up for your friends especially against bullies. Let them know you've got their backs no matter what.
7. A good friend ALWAYS makes time. If you havent seen your friends in a while, give them a call and ask them ti hang out w/ you.
8. A good friend ALWAYS forgives. Just like how you would want your friends to forgive you for any wrongdoings. you should do the same even if they offend you. this is especially if they are truly remorseful.
9. A good friend DOESNT get jealous. It doesnt matter if your friends get better grades, or has more money then you. you should always feel happy for them, not jealous.
10. A good friend ALWAYS has fun! Getting your friends to smile and laugh is one of the best gifts you can give them, especially when they're down! Try practising thos hilarious jokes in front of a mirrior!

& these are the reasons what friends are for! anw, this article is from teenage. a little kiddish to post this but find it quite meaningful & closely related to us - teens. so ya. nothing more alr. BYE!

awww, not again!

HELLO! i'm sick AGAIN! down w/ fever & flu. being sick is so normal to me, cause i'm ALWAYS falling ill.

Wasnt feeling very well in the morning, but i still went to school. I was damn shag in class! Slept during CDP & ref. ( Ms Mak actually let me sleep! HAHA! & she thought i cried when it's just that my eyes are too tired.) although i'm sick i still stayed back for band, kinda fun acually. sectionals for almost the whole band prac & was coaching my adorable sec ones. OHYA! CHOY's gf came to teach the clar section. they damn cute! cause both of them are so shy. awww. had a great laugh w/ qp during combine. & after band prac, went for dinner @ compass w/ dayna. I had fast food when i'm alr sick. (Y) -.- went home @ around 8.30, & i'm sooooo tired. my eyes could hardly open. i'm gonna hit my bed soon. doubt that i'm going school tomorrow. 

1.  what's wrong w/ you, do you have an eye problem? then why are you starring @ me? HATE me? OH! go ahead! not giving a damn, cause i hate you too.
2. stop spreading untrue stuff, it's irritating. ( hor yanxiu? )
3. i wanna emphasize that then & i are just bestfriends. you want to think otherwise up to you, but i'm of clear conscience, unlike somebody.
   
   
   bye!

one week pass so quickly

UH! hols is gonna be over soon. most of my time is taken up by band, tuition & HOMEWORK! is this what you call a school holiday? i miss my days back in sec 2 & 1. so little work load, & so much fun! anw, i still manage to squeeze my time out to go town w/ darrenthen. all we did was chat, walk around, movie & dinner. thats all. & FYI, we're just veryvery GOOD FRIENDS. :D &&& TELL ME! WHY YOU JUST REFUSE TO TELL ME!  I'M GONNA PESTER THE TRUTH OUT OF YOU! i'm so curious. muahahahhahahaah! i'm always full of nonsense & up to no good. ok, i shall end my post here. nothing more to post.

x + a + b = maths!

Dear maths, why are you so difficult?! & why my teachers have to give 50ques of  your friends, amaths & emaths for us as holiday homework. & why do you consist of so many topics? i've got so many of you to do! tsk~! you  took a whole lot of time of my hol!

(anw, that pic up there is taken like dont know how long ago, so it's not suprise to not see your name.)

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BLOODY HELL! i've been sitting in front of my comp for 2 freaking hours just to do 50 ques of amaths!

A packed hol!

HEY! i'm back ok? muahahahaa!
deleted the previous post as someone requested however, i kept a screenshot of it. hopefully he doesnt mind. hmmm, band recently was fine, & i'm so loving my juniors. :D ohya! did i mention that merry was here on tues?! HEHE! but i was having tuition. -.-

so recently was quite lethargic. i feel like sleeping in class, but it's just so inappropriate to sleep. i must find the right lesson to do so. HAHA! my hols is gonna be so busy ; full of work & band. i've got 16 things on my to-do list. (Y)? & band will be on sat(tomorrow),mon,wed & thurs! urg! why must sec 3 life be sooo busy? :@

HAPPY HOLS!

my days out.

went out w/ milky to town on fri. met around 2 & went to somerset 313. shopped @ cotton on, f21. then off to heeren, milky showed me a ripcurl's bag that's super cool!!!!! iwantiwant! but... if i buy it, i'll get scolded by my mum. ): heee, i dont care. i'm so gonna buy it. at most, i'll kept it till next year or something. :D we shop from 2plus all the way till 9plus. we went, 313 > heeren > fep > wisma > ion rubi > cineleisure > 313 & HOME! ( more pics on fb. (: )

yesterday, was band's welcome party for the sec 1s, it's was fun! except for all those naggy parts! watched brass band & then went compass's starbucks to chill w/ gwen. heri. joseph, qianping & shawn . played truth or dare. & i got dared for 3/4 times? the first one was to take a pic w/ some stranger & i took a photo w/ one caucasian. :D wanna seee? i dont feel like posting it leh.. but no harm eh? haha!

ok, i look er... HAHA! went home @ 3.30plus. thought merry will be @ home but end up they're not coming this weekend. AWWWWWW... ): i miss her..

will be busy next week, but i'll try to post. BYEEE

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screw me man! i think my chinese is getting for bad to worst. i cant read a lot of words, & i fail my chinese. -.- i just did my chinese elearning & i only got 40% -.- UH! screwed! i'm wondering if its my prob or isit that sec 3 chi is too difficult?

elearning.-.-

SOMEONE HELP ME DO MY LIT

PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE?!

shall post my day out w/ milky(today) tomorrow. too lazy. BYE & stay tuned!

this is not the way

In life, there'll always be ups & downs, the only way out is to pull through it.

ohman! my back is aching like !#$%^&*!@ & i've no idea why. tsk!

alright, yesterday, went over to weilin's place to have steam boat & it was sumptuous & yummy! thank weilin for inviting. :D had fun there. went home @ 9.30. bathed, watch tv, & chat. i had a terrible night @ home yesterday. dont want to elaborate much on such irritating things. :/ 

today, will just be a day@ home, doing homework, watching tv, wait for merry & play w/ iphone! hopefully my sis will lend me!  ( but i doubt so. tsk!)  nothing more to say, toodles! 

it's was a sensation!

i like the feeling of running forward as fast as you can & not think about other things.

BIG GREETINGS to all! i'm back to post! HEHEHE! ok, this week has been very packed.

1. 
   
   Mon was chem test & band, 
2. 
   
   Tues & Wed was rushing through speeches, tuition & physics,
3. 
   
   Today is physics test & sports heats.
4. 
   
   Tomorrow is speech test!

Shall just elaborate on what happen today. School as usual was boring, but it's always great to crap & gossip w/ sharmaine lau! Had our very first physics test today & it was.. a little above average? & During a maths, we were making fun of the teacher, by repeating what she said. HAHA she said substituion as subtuition, FAIL!~ ok, had 1 and a half period of makzard & i went off to heats!  Band came in 3rd for the CCA relay (B-girls) against cross country, netball, odac & choir. i think i somehow over stretched my muscles, & i can still feel some pain now. after heats, went home w/ dayna, bernice & yanxiu.

BYE! & shoo off suckers!

a wish

 I always have this wish that doesn't come true. it is to go back in time..

sorry for e lack of updates, was being lazy. :D

another week is gonna end & this week passed rather fast.
hmmm, CNY was greeeaaaattttttt! haha! boring though, but i got to see Merry, cousins & the greatest thing of all .... GET ANGBAOS! hehe! ok, so as CNY holidays come to an end, school reopens. UH SHAG! have to start boring lessons again. lately, have been quite busy w/ CNY, homework, school, tuition & all sorts of stuff. like what sharmaine said in fb, 24hrs/day is not enough! there's chem & phy test coming up, i've got to study hard for the testttt ( firstly, is to pass my test, get a B, & second, to get my basics right, & into my head! )

sissy brought meredith over to stay for a couple of days & they just went home, am missing merry NOW! haha! she's getting more & more adorable day by day! awww... haha! OK! i got to go & finish my tuition homework! BYE!

town.

went town today after school w/ amelia, charmaine, dionna, phoebe & sharmaine.
dhoby > orchard central > 313.
amelia left >  all of them went wisma > i went off to fep to meet muai sissy! :D haha!
bought things i need, but i didnt manage to get my shoe & bag yet! :@ & my dress is sold out! KANASAI! after shopping for awhile, i went home myself cause sissy's going somewhere else. on the way back to orchard, saw they all, waved & continue to walk back.

aww!~ i'm tired & my legs are soreeeeeee! i'm gonna go out tomorrow & find my shoes & bag AGAIN! ( only after i spring clean. tskkk! ha! )

byeeeee!

it'sa brand new start!

I think I've discovered the secret of life - you just hang around until you get used to it.
Charles M. Schulz

I've learnt not to dwell in the past but look into the future. cherish whatever i've now. :D friends are the only ones that i can keep for eternity, & thats why they're always there when i need them. making my happy, when i'm sad.

anw, HAHA! i think i've really gotten over it! hoho! have been very distracted @ first, but now, i think i'm fine alr. isnt that GRRRREAAATT?!

Big thanks to people that have been standing by me, & lending me a listening ear. haha! i knew i've got great friends ! :D OK! i'm gonna eat dinner & go for tuition! BYEEEEEEE!

it's all over.

people tell me that 'tomorrow's gonna be better', but i dont think so.

 

We ended on our 1year 5months 1week & 4 days.  290808

i dont know wanna elaborate anything here, cause, i dont feel like it. there's a lot inside me waiting to be poured out. i dont know how to resolve it, because i dont know why is it this way. sometimes, i wish i could tell, but i just dont think i should. i often went into deep thought; & while i'm walking home, i'd be bang by a car if i walked slower by a few steps. so i shant think about it anymore. hopefully, it's heal asap? ok, bye.

fyi, this is not only about that, it's a mixture of some others.

shop till you drop?

YEA! i went shopping w/ my sista yesterday @ fep! bought not very much 1 tolga jumper, 1high waist, 1 tank? & my sister bought a spag strap dress, she cant fit in & gave it to me. i wonder if i'll where it.. haha! UH! i wanna go back & buy shoes, another dress & bagggggg! MUAHAHAHHA!

ohya! sorry Louise that i cant go her chalet.. my mum dont allow me to go! aww.

okok, BYE!

is my intuition true?

test, after test..
i dont know what to say, maybe is just that i'm thinking too much. but i dont know why, i felt something. i dont know why, people dont understand. people say you for doing something wrong or something they think it's not right, & they do it themselves.why is this world so unfair, why am i always feeling it? i dont know & i've no idea. maybe it's time, i shall just be a mute whenever it comes to 'this'. silent is gold. talk is cheap, so i'm gonna try to realise it.

fck off losers!

haha, i'm so bored & tired now! & i almost slept during chem today!
&& i didnt know that sharmini's( dont know how to spell )  lesson is quite interesting. all of us were so engaged by her lesson :D after assembly went to rp with dionna, joseph, heri, shawn & lh. ate & wennt home. i'm so gonna take a nap! GOSHH!

i feel so useless when i cant help. this is why i'm so firm to be gynae! seriously, cant you just endureeeee? & why would there be sucha person?!

you dont have to be.

Life is like a rollercoaster ride. There's always ups & downs that we've to face, & we'll have to preserver through it!

uh! i feel soo shiok @ home. haha! 2days mc,& i think my voice is super sexy now. HOHO! hmmm, i found out that many people feel that 2010 isnt their year. C'mon! you guys need to be more optismistic! being depress & mugging real hard isnt the thing, you should take one step @ a time. ( & my mind goes, 'take one step @ a time, there's not need to rush....' ) you'll be able to cope as time goes by. making yourself carrying a big burden will make you feel more stressful! study when you need to, & play hard too! RELAXXXX! :D haha. JIAYOU!

AM SICK!

i'm down w/ fever, cough, runnynose & sorethroat. ohya! i had ultra pain stomach cramps yesterday night. gosh! i woke up @ 12plus, & 5plus in the morning cause of the painful aches! hmmm, so i didnt go school today cause of my slight fever, went to e doc & got 2days mc. YES for not able to attend band tomorrow. But NO for missing emaths quizzz, amaths & chem! i'll miss out so much. howhow? self study @ home? but i've no text except for my amaths. hmmm, forget it! :D haha!

&& happy belated birthday to sharmaine lauuuu! ni zhen de lau (lao) le!

wonder if anyone will miss me... hmmm..?